Just passed my 2 year mark

I haven't been here for a while.  I am still in a fight.  I feel I have some success, but not what I would like.  I had a period about 6 mos ago that I thought I was getting better, well that was a thought.  I had a spell where I was getting worse.  I have been to many specialists, hoping there was something else wrong that could be righted.  Not so, every test comes back negative.  My tinnitus has never left or lightened.  The tingling of needles through out the body comes and goes.  I've had upper GI's, and the result was that I produce too much acid and my stomach is inflamed.  Went there because of digestive problems that have persisted since jumping.  Still have the runny eyes, the conjested head and the persistent cough.  The biggest problem is the foggy head that comes and goes, comes more than it goes. 

 

This doesn't sound like much of a success, but I have accepted what is going on and I am trying to l live a some what normal life.  At my age time on this earth is precious, so time to fight through as much as I can.  Thank God I am retired, don't know what would have happened if I had to work.  Haven't been able to play golf in the last 2 years, which I loved doing a couple times a week before this adventure.  I am going fishing lately, so that is a success, I have been able to travel and visit my 92 year old mother.  I was feeling very guilty when I couldn't travel to see her.  I am planning trips this spring, fishing and visiting relatives that I haven't seen in 2 years. 

 

Instead of babbling on, I just want to say that I am improving, but my biggest success is accepting what each day brings.  Some are better than others, so I live for those good days and hope that everything will get better over time. 

 

Thanks again for listening. 

Great post! Thank you about sharing it. Remember that healing continues every day so days ahead of us are better than days behind us!

...time on this earth is precious, so time to fight through as much as I can. 

 

Beautiful - a true success, in my eyes. Thank you so much for posting. Wishing you continued recovery and peace.

 

Warmly,

Lara

 

I can relate to you because I just passed the two year mark earlier this month, and I am still in a fight.  Tinnitus has always been my worst symptom, and although it has gotten quieter overall, it is still constant.  I won't consider myself healed until it goes away.  If it doesn't, I will consider myself permanently damaged by benzos.  This has been the worst experience of my life!

Would this be better moved to the benzo free celebrations? Congratulations on making it 2 years and your progress. 

I can relate to you because I just passed the two year mark earlier this month, and I am still in a fight.  Tinnitus has always been my worst symptom, and although it has gotten quieter overall, it is still constant.  I won't consider myself healed until it goes away.  If it doesn't, I will consider myself permanently damaged by benzos.  This has been the worst experience of my life!

 

Hi there, has your tinnitus stopped yet?

Hang tough friend, and you are not too old. I hope the best for you continued recovery..

I know how you feel.  I am 18 months out after a long struggle (see my stats).  I am 67 and my husband is 72.  I know that time is precious now, I see guys younger than my husband dying.  We have all kinds of money set aside for our retirement, and my health issues are holding us back.  My husband is great, he does all the housework, shopping, and yardwork because I am so sick.  I haven't driven a car in 3 years, as I was tapering for a year and then 18 mths past quitting after a hospitalization and outpatient rehab.  My husband keeps encouraging me, I love him so much.  This is not fair to him.  Anyways, I am now at 18 months,and I guess I am now in protracted withdrawal.  I went ot that group, and just read a lot of very depressing stuff, like people who were at this for YEARS and not getting better.  I hope that at the next milestone, perhaps 24 months which will be spring, I will have another window and be able to travel with my husband.  Keep your spirits up!  Marja