an accurate description of wd symptoms by Budgie, a mod from the TRAP website

this is what she said about wd sx: (I do hope that Lori recovered eventually because she had a terrible time)

this was a message from Lori, who couldn't believe it was 

all withdrawals and the response from Budgie

(I kept it because it was so accurate)

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lori

"I won't type them all unless you really want to know as I am sure 

people grow tired of it...but there are too many inconsistencies 

for me to just believe it is withdrawal only at this point..things 

beyond the benzo monster that have morphed into other issues and 

some damage to my nerves,"

'Let me see if I can guess.

You feel like someone has opened up your skull and poured acid all 

over your brain and spinal cord, and it branches out to every last 

nerve ending in your body. It feels like you are underwater, with 

and electrical cord stuck in the water source....and the voltage is 

turned way up. Your brain feels like it shrinks and bounces against 

your cranium, then the next minute it swells and feels like it will 

bulge out of your ears, eyes and nose. Then there is the tickly, 

bubbly, sizzling feeling, like those little bags of Pop Rocks we 

used to get as a kid...only now it is in your brain.

Feels like your brain has turned to stone, or that it is clogged 

with super glue.

Your teeth feel like they are loose in their sockets and will fall 

out at any given moment.

Nerves are burnt and just thinking of answering the door or talking 

to someone will instantanelously cause you to pass out. Heck, you 

feel like just getting to the bathroom and going will cause you to 

pass out. ( You may even be like me and be silly enough to carry a 

phone around with you , in case you pass out. ) Just thinking of 

things you used to do now causes panic.

The depression is so thick you feel like you can't breathe...and 

like someone is pressing your head down and back as you try to go 

forward. Swimming against a strong currant. You cry if you sneeze, 

you cry at commercials, you cry for no reason at all. You may even 

cry in your sleep.

Everything in your body now pops. Even things you never knew you 

had...pops and cracks and snaps.

Your eyes burn, twitch and vibrate....and you swear they are about 

to bleed.

Feels like your tongue has swollen ten times the size it used to be 

and presses against your teeth. Then it gets sore form the constant 

rubbing against the teeth. Feels like you licked a hot frying pan.

The floor moves beneath you at all times....like one of those 

carnival funhouses, only it is not fun at all.

You feel drunker than a skunk. But not the fun kind of drunk.

Every centimeter of your alimentary canal...from your tongue to 

your caboose...feels ripped to shreds and burns.

You feel possessed by demons.

You are sure you have no soul...it has been sucked away.

Feels like the air you breathe is tainted with chile peppers.

You can bend your ankle and feel the muscles pull in your neck.

A Tic Tac makes you feel like you took a hit of speed.

If you exert yourself too much, your vision starts to look like one 

of those doorways that keeps getting farther and farther away, but 

you are running as fast as you can to get to it. The world looks 

like it is breathing ( walls, floors, ceilings, furniture, trees ).

Every cell burns and hurts and feels like it has changed into the 

shape of an ice pick.

You get mad when you see the world's oldest person on tv has more 

energy than you.

You want to spit at the person who tells you, "See, that man has no 

legs. At least you have legs". Because in all honesty, you'd gladly 

give up your legs on the spot if only you could feel better."

All this is just a drop in the bucket of things I have felt and 

endured. And I was guaranteed a worsening of every bit of it each 

time I tried a new pill to "help". pain everywhere, insomnia, 

nausea etc etc etc etc

__________________

"You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something, 

they wanna tell you that you can't do it either. You want something 

bad enough, go get it. Period !" ~ Will Smith

Benzo Free for 35 months

All that & then some for me...  Very descriptive writing. Makes a reader "feel" how devastating this withdrawal can be for some of us. At some point I too thought that there was NO WAY these bizarre, painful, lingering symptoms were all withdrawal. I even thought I may be "the worst case" too...but have since then read many stories of others who have/had symptoms just as severe. So we are not alone in this madness....

Maybe this post will help others who feel that they are the"worst case" & suffering with extremely painful, bizarre symptoms realize they are not alone & the only ones suffering with what seems to be the worst of the worst symptoms. Thanks for sharing this Polenta!

The good news is that at some point in time  IT ALL GOES AWAY!

All that & then some for me...  Very descriptive writing. Makes a reader "feel" how devastating this withdrawal can be for some of us. At some point I too thought that there was NO WAY these bizarre, painful, lingering symptoms were all withdrawal. I even thought I may be "the worst case" too...but have since then read many stories of others who have/had symptoms just as severe. So we are not alone in this madness....

 

Maybe this post will help others who feel that they are the"worst case" & suffering with extremely painful, bizarre symptoms realize they are not alone & the only ones suffering with what seems to be the worst of the worst symptoms. Thanks for sharing this Polenta!

 

The good news is that at some point in time  IT ALL GOES AWAY!

i hope you are right !!!  and I hope that this post does help others too!

That's a great description.

Do you have a link for that site?

Yup, she nailed it all right. Very eloquent. Thank God it does pass. What a rotten, nasty ordeal benzo w/d is.

Katz

That's a great description.

 

Do you have a link for that site?

I am sorry to say that it closed down a few years ago, but it was very good indeed whilst it lasted.

A great post... so very validating! Thank you for sharing 

(Feeling like the "worst case" which will never heal...)

Julz xx

That's a shame. Is there an archive?

thre used to be but i can't find it now, have you googled it? "Tranquilliser recovery and awareness place"