[un...] Posted September 6, 2017 Share Posted September 6, 2017 Hey everyone, About a month ago when withdrawal was pretty harsh (with extreme insomnia and head pressure, and of course anxiety and depression), I decided to write down my thoughts and feelings on paper. I am usually a decent writer but this was extremely difficult with the lack of sleep. But I think these words will resonate with a lot of people on here, so here it is: I try to reminisce to find a place of bliss. A time I miss, where I don’t just exist. A time when I am living and well, not dwelling in Hell. A time when I smile and laugh... feel like I am missing my good half. Sick of this place stuck inside my head I wanna break through the walls, step outside, and be free. Stuck in a death grip of anxiety, I can’t breathe. How can I dream when I can’t even sleep? How can I keep on treading water when my arms are so weak? How can I love when I can’t even feel? The damage is done. Will I ever heal? I am an experiment, a poisoned rat. No windows, only waves. Oh God please help me out of this maze. Thankfully at the 3 month off mark I am starting to see the light. I am sleeping most nights 2-3hrs (much better than minutes to an hour most nights). I even had a couple 4 hour nights the past week. My depression and anxiety are starting to lift. The only thing I am dealing with at an extreme level is the head pressure. I want to thank the Buddies that really helped keep me alive over the past few months - MTFan, Aloha, LeslieAsh... there are a few others that I have to remember (memory is not that sharp right now). Whatever you do, never give up! -Eric Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Fa...] Posted September 6, 2017 Share Posted September 6, 2017 Great poem! Glad you are finally getting some sleep now! It helps a lot for sure. I hope it keeps getting better for you!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Be...] Posted September 7, 2017 Share Posted September 7, 2017 Nice poem. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[be...] Posted September 10, 2017 Share Posted September 10, 2017 Nice. I hope your sleep goes from 4 hours to nine hours. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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