DP/DR Support group

[[Buddie]]

what is the difference between dp/dr and emotional bluntness...I dont know if I'm having dp or just numb to everything because of depression.

[[Buddie]]

I feel like I'm living in an alternate universe.  In fact, I know I am.

[[Buddie]]

I feel like I'm living in an alternate universe.  In fact, I know I am.

Same here. It's weird and scary crap.

[[Buddie]]

I feel like I'm living in an alternate universe.  In fact, I know I am.

Same here. It's weird and scary crap.

I've been thinking maybe there are many many planets out there like ours or other life supporting planets and we are all connected, in life and our dna and purposes are all connected.  So our memories, are not just of our own actual life but maybe also things that happened on other planets. 

And also I think how Earth could be one small part of a larger organism and in order for this larger thing to fight off some ailment they have to get the people on the Earth to stop polluting so much so they basically get a fever to kill off the right things, which is how climate change came to be.

I don't think I know any if this, but I think about stuff like this an awful lot lately.

[[Buddie]]

I feel like I'm living in an alternate universe.  In fact, I know I am.

Same here. It's weird and scary crap.

I've been thinking maybe there are many many planets out there like ours or other life supporting planets and we are all connected, in life and our dna and purposes are all connected.  So our memories, are not just of our own actual life but maybe also things that happened on other planets. 

And also I think how Earth could be one small part of a larger organism and in order for this larger thing to fight off some ailment they have to get the people on the Earth to stop polluting so much so they basically get a fever to kill off the right things, which is how climate change came to be.

I don't think I know any if this, but I think about stuff like this an awful lot lately.

Everything is possible in this vast universe, but what you think these days is mostly coming from benzo brain

[[Buddie]]

I am just into 2nd month off after almost 20 years on diazepam and the DP &DR are horrific.

I can't feel the inside of my body at all and my sense of touch is distant as if there is a layer of spongevover eveythingbor my nerve endings don't go to the end of my fingers. My body and my life feel completely unreal to me and I keep thinking I am in a nightmare and will wake up.

I'm getting the body changing shape and size that was mentioned and I totally get the 'paralell universe' thing. In the worst moments I start to belive I have died and gone somewhere else or that my life before illness and diazepam was never real in the first place or I'm in the Matrix and all the code is breaking down.

I've been through a lot of bad things in my life but this is THE WORST.

[[Buddie]]

OMG, so I'm reading this thread and when I read my old posts, it FEELS LIKE SOMEONE ELSE WROTE THAT.  I feel so crazy.   

[[Buddie]]

Is there ANY way to normalize This? I tell myself over and over and over again that it isn't dangerous but I'm still terrified by it.

[[Buddie]]

I felt like I was in an alternate universe for most of August...then I would see orbs of light...it's def. lifted...so I hope it gets better for everyone. I still have times where I look down and when I look up I have NO IDEA where I am. Like - is this life? Creeps me out and then I freak out.   Today I hate the world - nothing brings me happiness. Everything sucks. Everyone says this is your brain healing - soooo surreal and weird. Never ever ever had depression prior to ativan withdrawal. And I too have been through some bad shit, but this takes the cake. Someone wrote on article about how their breast cancer was a walk in the park compared to benzo wd. I hope I never go through the other, but this is rough.

[[Buddie]]

I HATE that feeling of being disoriented and having to like think of what I was doing just five seconds ago (and sometimes replay my whole day in my head). I start to freak out and think "WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING ALL DAY?" as I cannot remember. This is so scary and it never, ever gets tolerable.