DP/DR Support group

[[Buddie]]

Someone started a similar thread back in 2015 so I thought I'd start a fresh one.

DP/DR is by far my worst symptom. It is ironic that it is meant to be the brain's protective mechanism kicking in yet it has to be one of the most awful things to experience. I would  choose terror / fight or flight over DP/DR any day.

Are there many out there who suffer from this, and if so what stage are you at (tolerance withdrawal, tapering, post jump?).

I'm over half way through my taper off of valium and DP/DR is by far my worst symptom.

[[Buddie]]

I hear you! DP/DR is also my worst symptom. I'm almost 5 days into my 3rd cut from K, and while I am doing it faster than typical, I haven't had any debilitating symptoms yet, aside from pretty bad DP/DR. Anxiety is only up a little this cut. I'm expecting for the DP/DR to hit next week and the following week (weeks 2 and 3 following my most recent cut). It's a horrible feeling -- but it was weird last cut, I almost adapted to that sense of having a thick wall of fog between my thinking brain and my interacting-in-the-world brain. And I got used to forcing myself to jump in between thinking, and interacting with people/the world. It was very bizarre, and probably the worst symptom that I've ever had from medication. I'd take increased depression over DP/DR any day, and I don't say that lightly, as I've suffered from severe depression for almost my entire life.

[[Buddie]]

I hear you! DP/DR is also my worst symptom. I'm almost 5 days into my 3rd cut from K, and while I am doing it faster than typical, I haven't had any debilitating symptoms yet, aside from pretty bad DP/DR. Anxiety is only up a little this cut. I'm expecting for the DP/DR to hit next week and the following week (weeks 2 and 3 following my most recent cut). It's a horrible feeling -- but it was weird last cut, I almost adapted to that sense of having a thick wall of fog between my thinking brain and my interacting-in-the-world brain. And I got used to forcing myself to jump in between thinking, and interacting with people/the world. It was very bizarre, and probably the worst symptom that I've ever had from medication. I'd take increased depression over DP/DR any day, and I don't say that lightly, as I've suffered from severe depression for almost my entire life.

You're right.. I would swap DP/DR with almost any symptom.. is there anything you do or take that helps with it? I feel like I've tried everything under the sun - both medicinally and otherwise.. I totally relate with the interacting with the world brain.. if only there was a way to flick a switch in the brain..

Cheers

[[Buddie]]

Oh hey there.  I have this.  So much DP.  I often feel like I just arrived in this body and only just got the memories of this person's life that I am now supposed to live.  I feel like I am living out some science fiction story.

[[Buddie]]

It 3 years off and this is my most prominent symptom. It's brutal

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This has just recently come back for me this week.  Also, I'm not sure about loss of memory versus feeling like those memories are not mine.  This happens to me a lot where even though I remember something, it's as if I doubt the memory is actually true, because I don't feel like it is my memory.  This is weird because duh, how else did those memories get in my head? 

I have also been mixing stuff up a lot lately.  For example I mixed up the person I had a conversation with, even though I remembered all the details to the conversation, up to the point where someone showed me the video they were watching on their computer, and I remember being at their desk, however, it was a different person, and they showed me the video they were watching from their phone.  It's gets so confusing.  This isn't even important stuff but I'm all muddled about it.

[[Buddie]]

Anyone get distorted perception of size of different parts of the body with this?  It's chronic with me, so it could just be that I've had a lot of time to analyze it.

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Yes d animal I do

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I started to take diazepam because of derealization, but that DR didn't have much in common with DR I have now. Benzo induced DR started after some 2 months of taking benzo. After 3 months it was so bad that I stopped taking benzo.
My DR before and at the beginning of taking benzo was different, more like I couldn't focus, felt dizzy and disconnected like there's invisible veil between me and the world. It was bad, but not this bad.
Right now it's obvious to me that I'm mostly cured from my stress induced DR while this benzo DR pulled me into another dimension of existence where world seems completely different. I have better and worse moments, but it's really very scary shit.
I have other symptoms, but this one is the worst. When I look outside the window and feel like I'm in some surreal world on another planet it's really terrible and inhumane experience. Almost 4 months off and I see some improvements and had some windows where I could tolerate DR, but if only DR would go away completely I would be happy guy again even with the rest of the symptoms.

I had it also benzo induced back in 2010/2011, but that's a long story. I was completely recovered back then.

[[Buddie]]

Does anyone else feel surprised at strange things humans do?  Even though you KNOW that you have been human all this time, and logically, this shouldn't be suddenly surprising you.