Author Topic: Complete healing from a Klonopin cold turkey!  (Read 36872 times)

[Buddie]

thank you double-angel Pamster
« Reply #60 on: October 19, 2011, 06:52:28 pm »
[...],
It's 15 months now and though I am not in acute w/d, I am not a whole lot better either.
Checking in with you, I've stumbled across things I should have known existed, but didn't. I'm sorry I didn't realize that there are very sick and angry people out there who wish you harm. I'm sorry I posted the "brain damage from benzos" article from England- sure wish I could take it back. Even though I know lots of dangerous stuff exists on the web, but when one is overwhelmed with the agony of w/d, it's nearly impossible to be rational and keep things in perspective. I'm sorry if I said too many private things in PM mode- and sorry if I put you in any danger. I only wish good things for you.
I can't tell if my email address is hidden from the public - the box is checked on my profile- does it mean that only I can see it? The bb site is not accepting my password. This is the only way I can communicate with you. Please delete this if it is a problem.
I have two foster dogs and a foster kitten right now- they are adorable.
[...] you are well.
I am hanging in there.
k
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[Buddie]

Re: Complete healing from a Klonopin cold turkey!
« Reply #61 on: October 28, 2011, 05:45:02 am »

I was on Klonopin for about 5 years, I took it on a as needed basis but as needed turned out to be quite often.  My dose at the end of my use was between 6 to 10 milligrams a day.  My behavior and personality had changed, I knew I had to stop so I did, on October 10, 2007.  I checked myself into a rehab facility on Oct 12, I was beginning to feel very ill.  They gave me 2 doses of Klonopin that day along with 2 doses of Phenobarbital, as I was told me there was a danger of seizure. That was the extent of my detox, I was to join the general population of the facility to learn the 12 steps the next day.  I knew nothing of benzodiazepines, didn't know they must be tapered, but somehow knew I was in trouble.  I checked myself out against medical advice that night with a prescription for 5 Phenobarbital in my pocket.  The next day I tried to find a Dr who could help me, but they all referred me to the facility I'd just left.  
 
Thus my nightmare began, one filled with unimaginable pain and agony.  The first days felt as if my internal organs were being shredded, I could only lay on my couch and writhe in pain.   As the days passed my extremities, all of my muscles were being twisted and shredded.  The pain was relentless accompanied by no sleep, nausea, trembling, twitching and the darkest, most fear filled thoughts I'd ever known.  I was too sick to research what was happening to me, I could only guess I'd been poisoned by the drug.  I made frantic calls to the facility I'd left, asking for help to understand what was happening to me.  They thought I was drug seeking, thought I wanted more Phenobarbital, I wasn't, I just wanted to know how to help myself.  
 
I finally got on the Internet after 3 weeks of torture and found an article about a rock star who'd withdrawn from Klonopin, she said it had taken her 45 days to heal from her nightmare.  I was disheartened, how could I endure this for 45 days.  But as the days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months, I finally found BenzoBuddies; 5 months after my cold turkey and learned the truth.  It isn't days, or weeks it's months before healing takes place.
 
I'm writing this story because I know the hopelessness you feel, I know the fear and the pain, but now I also know the joy of complete healing.  The relief I feel each day is something I'll always cherish.  I've returned to who I was before benzo's, but I'm so much better than I was then because I've learned a valuable lesson for which I will always be grateful.  I have joy in my life again, I can feel emotion and love. I know [...] and relaxation, and I'm free from anxiety and fear.   I told myself I was completely healed at 14 months past my cold turkey, but I'm not sure that's true now because my life has continued to improve since that time.  I don't know if it's still healing from the Klonopin or if my gratitude to be well has given my life new meaning.  
 
I did this the hard way, I stopped cold turkey but this only proves that however you do it, whatever works for you, we call all heal from this.  Don't give up [...], it will happen for you too.
 
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Hi [...],

Can you tell me how long it took you to get to the point where you were feeling better after your cold turkey?  I know everyone is different but I need something to look forward to.  Were you able to work during this time?  I have to go on short term disability because I cannot think or remember things,  I cannot even follow simple instructions.   I cannot get my head around the fact that a LEGAL drug can do this to me!  I also cannot come to terms with the fact a doctor prescibed this to me and could not be bothered to tell me what would happen if I ever wanted or in my case needed to stop taking them. (I would not have taken them!)  I am shellshocked.  My job,  therefore my life is in jeapordy over a doctor's negligence.  Can you give me the benefit of your experience?

Thanks
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[Buddie]

Re: Complete healing from a Klonopin cold turkey!
« Reply #62 on: November 06, 2011, 06:28:51 pm »
Hi Pampster,

My goodness; it's awful the way you were treated at the facility and quite amazing how you continued to persevere. That you are still here encouraging us 'newbies,' is a blessing. I want to thank you also for sharing your story. If it weren't for these sites on the internet..I would be completely lost. My Dr. thinks benzos are no big deal, either she is ignorant or unethical..one or the other. These success stories give me [...].
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[Buddie]

Re: thank you double-angel Pamster
« Reply #63 on: November 10, 2011, 07:03:08 pm »
[...],
It's 15 months now and though I am not in acute w/d, I am not a whole lot better either.
Checking in with you, I've stumbled across things I should have known existed, but didn't. I'm sorry I didn't realize that there are very sick and angry people out there who wish you harm. I'm sorry I posted the "brain damage from benzos" article from England- sure wish I could take it back. Even though I know lots of dangerous stuff exists on the web, but when one is overwhelmed with the agony of w/d, it's nearly impossible to be rational and keep things in perspective. I'm sorry if I said too many private things in PM mode- and sorry if I put you in any danger. I only wish good things for you.
I can't tell if my email address is hidden from the public - the box is checked on my profile- does it mean that only I can see it? The bb site is not accepting my password. This is the only way I can communicate with you. Please delete this if it is a problem.
I have two foster dogs and a foster kitten right now- they are adorable.
[...] you are well.
I am hanging in there.
k


Hi [...], How are you today? It has been a really long time since I heard from you.
Checking in on you and [...] you are enjoying life today
I contiune the journey still and [...] to give you a happy story one day
I thank you and everyone here for your support.
Take care
[...]
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[Buddie]

Re: Complete healing from a Klonopin cold turkey!
« Reply #64 on: November 14, 2011, 06:19:47 am »
Hello [...]!

Thank you very much for your story, I'm 8 months off, I feeling better, I'll be patient.

A hug and blessings!
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[Buddie]

Re: Complete healing from a Klonopin cold turkey!
« Reply #65 on: November 19, 2011, 02:37:43 am »
Hi [...],

Just wanted to come by and say hello.  I also want to thank you for all your help when I first joined BB.  You are a special lady!

Take care,
[...]
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[Buddie]

Re: Complete healing from a Klonopin cold turkey!
« Reply #66 on: November 27, 2011, 03:07:21 pm »
I too c/t from clonazepam (almost 4 years on it) and I have read your success story and [...] that I will also heal soon.  Thank you.
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[Buddie]

Re: Complete healing from a Klonopin cold turkey!
« Reply #67 on: July 03, 2012, 10:30:07 pm »
Awesome story [...],
      Thanks for sharing. Can never read enough of these!
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[Buddie]

Re: Complete healing from a Klonopin cold turkey!
« Reply #68 on: July 05, 2012, 05:32:14 am »
Hi [...],  I know the hell you went thru [...].  I got so impaired on Klonipin I ended up in the hospital with a cold turkey withdrawal and put on phenobarbital too.  I was psychotic.  I have never been so ill.  so what did I do, I went back on it.  I didn't really understand at that time, what it was doing to my brain and body.  second time, cold turkey, psychosis again, tried to get off for 1 or 2 years reinstated.  Finally now, I am fighting and winning the battle.  I am sicker that I have ever been but my mind is coming back and I know that with time I will heal. 

Your story gives me so much [...].  I am very depressed that this happened to me and I so want to live now, but I can't because I am so sick.  I have lost 17 years and now, I feel like I am going to loose more time getting off.  It is so frustrating.  thank you for your story.  [...] m
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[Buddie]

Re: Complete healing from a Klonopin cold turkey!
« Reply #69 on: July 09, 2012, 12:37:43 pm »
Hi [...]  I will always remember you.  I [...] you are well.  Thanks so much for all you have done for us here.  May God bless you always.
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