Author Topic: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!  (Read 12325 times)

[Buddie]

DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« on: March 01, 2017, 09:07:37 pm »
There are a lot of moments these days that I stand in wonder & awe at the goodness of God... this is one of those moments.

I came back to visit Benzo Buddies out of curiosity -- to perhaps look at some of my old posts and see how far this journey has brought me. As I sit here at this computer typing, I am absolutely amazed at how beautiful this road has become. I didn't plan on even writing anything, but I feel that it has now become a critical part of my recovery that I say something... anything... to give someone hope who may be exactly where I was some 2 1/2 years ago in my life.

I want to start by assuring you, IT DOES GET BETTER. There were times during my withdrawal that I truly feared for my life, and wondered if I would ever be a normal, functioning member of society again. There were times that I thought I would always be crazy and that I would never be able to have normal relationships with other people again. There were times that I thought I was so far gone that no one could possibly love me again and that I was destined to be a failure for the [...] of my life. During benzo withdrawal, I've come to realize those are normal feelings. And it's okay to have them, and wrestle with them. Don't feel like you are abnormal in any way because of all of negativity and despair that you may feel.

That being said... it is imperative that you begin to remember and visualize the hope that still remains for your future. God has a wonderful plan for each and every one of us, even those of us that have been addicts and mental patients. He reminds us in Jeremiah 29:11, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'" Now I realize that this section of the Benzo Buddies forum isn't for religious posting, and that is not my intent. What I have just shared with you can simply be considered an insert from ancient literature that is meant to encourage you. I choose to stand on verses like this in the Bible that remind me of who I am and was created to be, and it has been a crucial part of my transformation and recovery process.

It is important that you know the TRUTH about yourself. You are an amazing person and are very deeply loved. You have people in this world that genuinely care for you and pray for you on a daily basis. You have a vibrant future and will soon begin to have experiences unlike anything you've had in the past. Those things that you've been praying and asking God for, they will soon be realized in your life, although maybe not the way you expect them to. You are about to start having spiritual encounters that will completely revolutionize your way of thinking. You just keep knocking on the door, and He will be sure to respond. You WILL see a brighter day again, and very quickly I tell you. It is going to happen much faster than you even think is possible.

There is absolutely nothing in this world that I could begin to complain about now. Every withdrawal symptom has completely subsided, and I am completely 100% medication free (I rarely even take ibuprofen unless I have to). I have total control of my mental processes, and anxiety and depression are merely an afterthought for me these days. I try to never forget where I came from and what I've been through, but to spend my time focusing on the past would be a waste of my energy. Instead, I spend my time dwelling on the Word and in communion with God. And that is where my freedom comes from. I have absolute peace and joy unlike anything I ever thought I would have. Of course every single detail isn't ideal, but I still love my life anyway! And this is going to be your story too! Keep fighting the fight and taking one step at a time towards benzo freedom and I promise you that IN TIME you will have a story proclaiming your liberty just like my own! There is no quick fix in this battle unfortunately... it is a daily grind until one day you wake up and realize you are free!

Don't lose hope, pray, and fight! YOU WILL OVERCOME THIS AND CRUSH THE ENEMY'S POWER IN YOUR LIFE!

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[Buddie]

Re: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« Reply #1 on: March 01, 2017, 09:28:40 pm »
Destiny,
This is so beautifully written, and thank you for giving me hope. God bless you always!
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[Buddie]

Re: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« Reply #2 on: March 01, 2017, 09:29:44 pm »
Beautiful ,and thanks for sharing!!!
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[Buddie]

Re: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« Reply #3 on: March 01, 2017, 09:52:47 pm »
Destiny,
This is so beautifully written, and thank you for giving me hope. God bless you always!

There is always hope! I am so proud of you! Never give up!
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[Buddie]

Re: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« Reply #4 on: March 01, 2017, 09:53:47 pm »
Beautiful ,and thanks for sharing!!!

It is my responsibility to share! Thank you for your response!
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[Buddie]

Re: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« Reply #5 on: March 01, 2017, 11:59:41 pm »
Thank You Destiny!

Your kind words and healing experience help more then you might realize.
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[Buddie]

Re: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« Reply #6 on: March 02, 2017, 08:03:41 am »
Thank you  :hug:





Love [...] xxx :smitten: :smitten: :smitten:
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[Buddie]

Re: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« Reply #7 on: March 02, 2017, 12:50:57 pm »
Oh wow, thank you for writing this, honestly itís a God send.  Just recently Iíve been getting distressed and started to think Iím kidding myself this will leave. I donít get much in the way of windows and itís been a long time. It really does inspire hope when thereís a new success story and you can relate to it. This is such an awful journey and you tend to think when it goes on that there has to be something else wrong, maybe itís now PTSD. Itís a constant battle with the mind. Really happy for you and encouraged.
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[Buddie]

Re: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« Reply #8 on: March 02, 2017, 01:22:50 pm »
Your story is so inspiring and uplifting, and I am glad you posted it. Wish you continue success http://www.benzobuddies.org/forum/Smileys/standard/smitten.gif
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[Buddie]

Re: DON'T LOSE HOPE, PRAY, & FIGHT!
« Reply #9 on: March 02, 2017, 01:55:52 pm »
Thank you!  This is the perfect way to start my day today! 
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