[of...] Posted October 4, 2016 Share Posted October 4, 2016 If you Have or Had Emotional Numbness, please share! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 4, 2016 Author Share Posted October 4, 2016 I've had emotional numbness now since my taper. I feel emotionally disconnected from myself and others. But it has shown signs of going away Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [Le...] Posted October 4, 2016 Share Posted October 4, 2016 Yes, the emotional numbness hit badly at the beginning of month three - after crying for months during TWD and RT/CT, I suddenly couldn't cry at all, or feel much of anything. This is very common, and by all accounts goes away - but right now it feels pretty rough. By contrast, during the first two months after I jumped, and despite bad symptoms, I had moments of absolute euphoria. For now it's Anhedonia Central for me, and I keep myself going with the gratitude that sleep has improved so much. This is also where the distraction of work helps quite a lot. It is absolutely critical that I not show emotion in my work, so I try to see it as an advantage for now. Because of this, I find it easier to be in the office than to be at home, where all my stuff keeps me a prisoner of my own memories. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 4, 2016 Author Share Posted October 4, 2016 My work used to distract me too. Now I'm just plain old Impatient. I've been noticing small differences lately so hopefully it's on its way out Thanks for sharing ! I'm not alone Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [Le...] Posted October 4, 2016 Share Posted October 4, 2016 My work used to distract me too. Now I'm just plain old Impatient. I've been noticing small differences lately so hopefully it's on its way out Thanks for sharing ! I'm not alone Do you ever feel 'happy'? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 4, 2016 Author Share Posted October 4, 2016 I feel neutral about most things. . I don't "feel " happy.. I do have alot to be happy about tho Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [Le...] Posted October 4, 2016 Share Posted October 4, 2016 Sounds as though you're improving though, that's good. I am working on becoming happy again, the way I used to be. It's so weird to not be able to feel it yet. But healed BB members assure me that happiness returns, and since sleep did, I'm going to believe them on this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 4, 2016 Author Share Posted October 4, 2016 The fear of the unknown always gets the best of me I'll sit around and try to make sense of this and somehow find faith it will go away. Thanks for the reassurance Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ca...] Posted October 5, 2016 Share Posted October 5, 2016 I am emotionally numb. And very disinterested in people and things. I barely can cry. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 5, 2016 Author Share Posted October 5, 2016 Me too Carol it will get better!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Te...] Posted October 5, 2016 Share Posted October 5, 2016 Here too. Emotional numbness. Cannot feel joy still. I wonder when this is going to end. I had a really good window, and things started to come alive, but since then it's been back to the same old feeling - nothing. I wish so much that this would end!! Glad you started this thread, Off!! I have to say, though, that I'm on a boatload of bp pills. That may have something to do with it, though it didn't interfere with the window I had. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 5, 2016 Author Share Posted October 5, 2016 I'm not sure about BP meds but anything is possible. I think we just need more time Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 5, 2016 Author Share Posted October 5, 2016 I can feel my depression lifting.. I think it might be the key to my emotions.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 7, 2016 Author Share Posted October 7, 2016 Ive always been interested in whether emotional numbness was a bi-product of depression, or something seperate from depression. Well im starting to notice that im very depressed.. I'm starting to find that I'm extremely unsatisfied with life, and very discontent. I find it difficult to sit back and take a deep breath. In the past two months or so, Ive had moments where I could actually find peace. The mind chatter goes blank, a warm feeling fills my body and I feel normal. I have faith that this isnt permanent. I'm very hopeful for the future and I will never look back from here on out. Only to reflect, not to dwell Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Sh...] Posted October 14, 2016 Share Posted October 14, 2016 Hell yes! I have been dead inside for the last 6 months! No matter how hard ive tried I havent been able to cry. But in the last week my crying has started to happen again. Must be a sign that emotions are coming back on! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ce...] Posted October 14, 2016 Share Posted October 14, 2016 I can't cry...does that count? I want to...I just can't. :'( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 14, 2016 Author Share Posted October 14, 2016 That's a good sign Shamo. You must be getting better. You too Cece? Wow! This is crazy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [Le...] Posted October 14, 2016 Share Posted October 14, 2016 Me too - wish I could cry again. I cried all the time during actual withdrawal. Now I can't feel anything. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[1w...] Posted October 14, 2016 Share Posted October 14, 2016 I am emotionally numb. And very disinterested in people and things. I barely can cry. Me too, me too! DP/DR pretty bad as well . . . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Sh...] Posted October 15, 2016 Share Posted October 15, 2016 Its a terrible feeling just going through months and months without any emotions. Except stress. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[1w...] Posted October 15, 2016 Share Posted October 15, 2016 Its a terrible feeling just going through months and months without any emotions. Except stress. I completely understand! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 15, 2016 Author Share Posted October 15, 2016 I have days where emotions peek through, like I'm stepping out of the fog or something. Like a week ago watching brave heart. I started choking up, felt like I was on the Brink of balling my eyes out Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[1w...] Posted October 15, 2016 Share Posted October 15, 2016 I have days where emotions peek through, like I'm stepping out of the fog or something. Like a week ago watching brave heart. I started choking up, felt like I was on the Brink of balling my eyes out Love this! Hoping for return of this for me . . . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[of...] Posted October 20, 2016 Author Share Posted October 20, 2016 I cried yesterday morning. There was a show on about this guy who donated bone marrow to a girl in Russia and saved her life. I actually cried. At the moment tho I'm numb Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ce...] Posted October 20, 2016 Share Posted October 20, 2016 I cried yesterday morning. There was a show on about this guy who donated bone marrow to a girl in Russia and saved her life. I actually cried. At the moment tho I'm numb Cool! You're on your way OET...can't wait to cry.... :'( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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