Hey K Kids - we almost blew up the place with so many posts.

It has been [...] - internally and externally. I come here everyday to check in - just haven't felt like I had any [...] to add. These are certainly strange times and going through this benzoworld experience is enough to turn your hair grey.
I've been preoccupied with life issues - don't ya just hate that? Life gets in the way all the time. Going back to work next week, which means my brain needs to come along for the ride. And, I am moving to a sweet little house up the street. I moved to the shoreline two years ago (an hour away from my 'base' and where I knew no one) and found a house on the water to rent. It was too big and too expensive for just me, but I had money my [...] left me when he died three years ago and I knew the Universe offered me this experience for a reason, so I took it. Little did I know I was about to embark on a vision quest. My house is right up against the sea wall, so when I look out my windows, all I can see is water. My entire sensory experience is water. Needless to say, it has been intense. And because of where the house is located, I can't see my neighbors unless I look out my bathroom window. There are many nights I go into the bathroom just to make sure I'm not floating away.
Anyway - the good news is I haven't had the energy to collect more crap, but I am still purging and still finding old photos, notes, etc. tucked away in books. I [...] to restrain myself and not throw away everything...it's exhausting. But, I am excited about my [...] home, which is on a dead end road - so it will be [...]. No long-ass driveway to worry about, and I can look out my windows and see house lights on. Living in benzoworld and then beginning the process of leaving it is very isolating - I guess on some level I chose to really isolate these last two years by living on a house - boat. I [...] not to analyze myself too much

I feel like I'm wrapping myself up in a protective blanket. I know what I need to do over the next couple months and bracing myself for the ride. I'm almost at 1/4 tablet - .050 grams - not sure what that is in [...]. I've never been this low in 12 years. I know
something feels different, I'm just not sure what. The DR/DP freaks me out most of the time.
Are there any Patron Saints or Archangels of Moving?

I think about you all everyday and I pray for all of us.