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[Buddie]

I've failed....
« on: April 30, 2009, 01:56:48 am »
So after my encounter with alcohol and not being able to sleep or eat for days, and so much muscle twitching, and a seizure, I ended up in the ER in a full blown unstoppable scared of dying panic attack.  They gave me a 0.5 mg lorazepam on the spot to stop it, and want me to start taking Seroquel again along with a small amount of diazepam.  I'm so dizzy and sleepy and wired and miserable, I don't see that I have any choice. I have to try to get some sleep.  I'm also wondering if I need to go to an inpatient psych ward to sort this out, as I'm really scared as well, I don't know if I'm going to live or die.  All that hard work tapering for nothing. 
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[Buddie]

Re: I've failed....
« Reply #1 on: April 30, 2009, 02:17:51 am »
((((hugs))))
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[Buddie]

Re: I've failed....
« Reply #2 on: April 30, 2009, 02:22:17 am »
SE,

You haven't failed! You've had a setback. It's ok to do what you need to do right now. You need to get feeling better, and there is no failure in that. Just stabilize and don't beat yourself up. You are not going to die, you are going to live. Your tapering was not for nothing. The effort alone is worth a lot. You will be able to do it again. Just get some sleep and let go.  
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[Buddie]

Re: I've failed....
« Reply #3 on: April 30, 2009, 02:22:43 am »
The hard work you did to taper is not for nothing, your accomplishment is still in tact.  Just because you were given the drug that one time and advised to go back on doesn't mean you're back where you started from.

You can make the choice right now, tonight not to go down this path again.  You do not have a condition that requires you to take the benzo.  All that happened is because you drank and it set off your withdrawal symptoms again.

It's not too late to say no, the drugs you've taken in the last few days are not enough to undo everything you've accomplished.  You won't be starting from square one if you choose to say no to this advice.  You won't have to endure everything all over again if you stop now.

Please give this some serious thought and stop before you start.  

[...] :smitten:
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[Buddie]

Re: I've failed....
« Reply #4 on: April 30, 2009, 02:23:45 am »
So after my encounter with alcohol and not being able to sleep or eat for days, and so much muscle twitching, and a seizure, I ended up in the ER in a full blown unstoppable scared of dying panic attack.  They gave me a 0.5 mg lorazepam on the spot to stop it, and want me to start taking Seroquel again along with a small amount of diazepam.  I'm so dizzy and sleepy and wired and miserable, I don't see that I have any choice. I have to try to get some sleep.  I'm also wondering if I need to go to an inpatient psych ward to sort this out, as I'm really scared as well, I don't know if I'm going to live or die.  All that hard work tapering for nothing. 

[...],  :therethere:

You will get through this! You just needed to break the vicious cycle of not sleeping/eating. The tapering was not for nothing, you can still get back to where you were before this set back!  :thumbsup:

T2 :smitten:
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[Buddie]

Re: I've failed....
« Reply #5 on: April 30, 2009, 03:05:25 am »
Thank you for your kind replies.  I think these symptoms I'm experiencing are so much more severe because when I tapered, I had the long half-life Diazepam in my system to ease them.   Now that the withdrawal symptoms have recurred, I have no defense against them, and it's ten times as horrible.  I think if I can stabilize on 2 mg Diazepam I will be in good shape again, as tapering down from 2mg to nothing was nowhere near as bad as this is.
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[Buddie]

Re: I've failed....
« Reply #6 on: April 30, 2009, 03:09:36 am »
I think that will work for you. When you feel good and stable, you can go for it again, slow and steady. Try not to wait it out too long though, so you don't get into a tolerence situation.   :thumbsup:
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Re: I've failed....
« Reply #7 on: April 30, 2009, 03:14:31 am »
Hi Sorrow,
You most certainly have not failed. Treat yourself as a friend, you would NEVER tell your best friend going through what you are, that they failed. You have friends, US, we will be here for as long as you need and for what you need. I'm sending you a huge hug. Cut yourself some slack you deserve it! I hope tomorrow brings a smile to your face. Kel
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Re: I've failed....
« Reply #8 on: April 30, 2009, 04:48:32 am »
Oh Sorrow!  :therethere:  I'm sorry to hear about this!
You havent failed! You've had a minor setback. Do what you have to do, there's no judgement  :thumbsup: . You've done it before and you will again! Make sure your learning everything you can about controlling anxiety and helping insomnia so that your as prepared as possible. Knowledge is power!
Take care and keep us posted!

Amanda  :smitten:
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Re: I've failed....
« Reply #9 on: May 10, 2009, 05:52:56 am »
A mere setback....DONT beat yourself up.... :pokey: Your doing GREAT!
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