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This is a lost of the hell I've Bern enduring .... it's not a complete lost but I'm sp acared to be 16 months pit and still suffering so grately. I don't have all of these sx anymore ...but enough to make me question my sanity and ability to endure every single Melting brain

Burnjng brain

Burnjng acid body

Melting face

Objects moving

Body floating upward

Body Being pulled down

Severe body abd head pressure

Buzzing of body head

Terror in mind and body

Panick

Impending doom

Black hole depression

Paranoia

Severe dr/dp

Lsd trip

Everything looks black and white

Sounds traumatizing

Smells intense and traumatizing

Hearing robotic voices in head

Severe akathesia

Tinitus so loud it kept me awake

Body cramps abd aches

Hair feeling wet or growing

Icy hot on skin

Fiber glass on skin

Dreaming while awake (eyes closed)

Adrenal surges

Hearung voices in head

Hearing conversations between others inside head

Room breaking up into puzzle pieces

Internal vibrations

Ears full of fluid

Ears feel wet on the outside

Confusion

Rapid speech 2000 miles a minute

Pacing the floors

Agitation of the body to the point of biting self

Pulling hair out

Scratching face till it bled

Scared to shower

Scared to get off couch

Positive or negative thoughts bring terror through body

Body literally feels like toxins ate running through it

3am waking with terror and blood curdling depression

Scared of Shadows on my room

Sounds send terror through my body

Smells are too powerful and send signals of trauma through me

Don't feel safe

Urge to hide in the closet

Sobbing uncontrollably and begging my mom to make it stop

Heart rate 200 when standing

Electric current through body thst is actually painful

Feels like a brick is sitting inside my head on my brain

Brain feels literally numb

Don't have any feeling that my son is actually mine

Visions/flashes of me putting a gun to my head

Literally feel my brain short circuit

Feels like fire crackers shooting out of my brain

Brain zaps

Feel lethargic at times but body won't rest

Irritability

Emotions too much

Soaking the bed in sweat like I took a shower in the bed

Severe anxiety and depression mixed together

Zero sleep ...too revved up ..body amd mind

Inability to feel love or joy

Thought of sex makes, me cry

Mouth burning with tongue ice cold

Stinging all over body

Inability to eat

Then eat a ton

Hissing inside Brain

Hysteria

Jerking all over body

Low blood sugar feeling

Ptsd surrounding hospitals and my experience

Feel there is no way out

Inability to find peace

Inability to distract

The trauma is on my mind 24 7 and follows me to sleep when I can sleep

Stomach issues

Csn hear mysekf crying inside mysekf

Terrified abd rumination over bipolar and mental illness

Legs feel paralysed with terror

Can not see the future ...don't think I'm going to be here

Head feels to light at times

Breasts always feel odd

I feel like on a terrible lsd trip

People distorted

Desire to run n get help

Vione inside me while talking to people thst says they know ur mentally ill

Feels like a force wants me dead

Feels like the hulk is inside me and going to burst out abd kill everyone

Feels like a tiger is, eating my insides

Can not take naps... body and mind won't allow it

Vaginal agitation

Fear of harming others mainly son

Complete fear of losing it completely/psychosis

Visual hallucinations

No connection to people

I know mike is my husband but it's like a dream ...

Broken sentences in head thst make no sense

Complete inability to feel calm peace or relaxation

Chills up body

Hot and cold flashes

Inability to regulate temp

Cant get words out

Feel the extreme need to pace

Complete restlessness

Night terrors

Flashes of my past causing terror

Stinging like fire ants eating me

Mind racing about the reaction no matter what im doing

Everything looks like a black and white horror movie

Agitation

Rage

Felt like the devil possessed me

metallic taste in mouth

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Traumatized, you're not alone on a lot of those symptoms.

 

Some of your symptoms I either have or had earlier including:

 

Melting face

Objects moving

Body floating upward

Body Being pulled down

Everything looks black and white

Sounds traumatizing

Smells intense and traumatizing

Hearing robotic voices in head

Hearing voices in head

Hearing conversations between others inside head

Room breaking up into puzzle pieces

Scared of Shadows on my room

 

 

For me, it's a part of the depersonalization / derealization.

 

Do you feel safe? Is your husband with you?

 

It sounds like you're getting slammed with both mental and physical withdrawal at the same time. That's a lot to handle. Hope you're feeling better soon.  :smitten:

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Guys I'm really scared

 

I'm so sorry you're still suffering like this, and my heart goes out to you.  I too had many, if not most, of the symptoms you mention at one time or another.  But, though it took a full two years, I finally healed.  Have you had any improvement at all in any of your symptoms?  Even a small improvement is a sign of healing.  It can take some of us a long time to heal, but eventually we do heal.

 

Also, it would help you to get more support if you'd take the time to Create a Signature.  This will allow others to see where you are in the process so they can better support you.

 

:smitten:

Megan

 

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Megan I have seen improvement but when I get hit I get hit hard I mean  full blown Think I csnt hold on one more second...anguish ...dr/dp..burning acid ..extreme desperation ..crying hysterically ...telling my husband I'm not going to make it.... panick and terror all night mixed with severe depression  and electric jolts .... I can't even put into works the torture ...and at 17 months.
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Well I've not had vaginal agitation, or LSD trip, but just about every other one of those things I've experienced in either small doses or tidal waves during my tolerance and taper.
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My dear , I am appalled by Drs drugging people to the point . You have been through so much . Any ct is difficult but off fifteen different drugs . You cns has taken a big hit, but it will heal, time will heal us all . It seems like forever but it happens....My thoughts and prayers are with you....Diane :hug:
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Guys I'm really scared

I too ...

 

Fear of harming others mainly son

:idiot:

 

 

Not nice, jabba.  Please reread this section of the Forum Rules that everyone agrees to when they become members:

 

 

Be polite towards, and respectful of, your fellow Buddies. We do not tolerate attacks upon fellow members. Any account created for the purposes of causing arguments and/or ill-feeling will be banned.

 

 

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Not nice, jabba.  Please reread this section of the Forum Rules that everyone agrees to when they become members:

 

Be polite towards, and respectful of, your fellow Buddies. We do not tolerate attacks upon fellow members. Any account created for the purposes of causing arguments and/or ill-feeling will be banned.

 

I believe that instead of banning me, the administrator should contact by MP traumatized80 to hear what state is ... or remain quiet for a potential murder ...

 

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Not nice, jabba.  Please reread this section of the Forum Rules that everyone agrees to when they become members:

 

Be polite towards, and respectful of, your fellow Buddies. We do not tolerate attacks upon fellow members. Any account created for the purposes of causing arguments and/or ill-feeling will be banned.

 

I believe that instead of banning me, the administrator should contact by MP traumatized80 to hear what state is ... or remain quiet for a potential murder ...

 

 

Knock it off jabba.....i told you once before these psych.meds can set off

 

all sorts of crazy symptoms. if you have no clue about it.....

 

its better to shut your bloody mouth.  >:( >:(

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What do you eat ?

 

That was a silly question W......you have so much knowledge .

 

I can assure you these crazy symptoms do exist......believe me.

 

and they have nothing to do with food....

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its better to shut your bloody mouth.  >:( >:(

 

First close the mouth you, thanks.

 

Here you are talking to someone who wants to kill the child, perhaps not realize it.

 

Fear of harming others mainly son
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its better to shut your bloody mouth.  >:( >:(

 

First close the mouth you, thanks.

 

Here you are talking to someone who wants to kill the child, perhaps not realize it.

 

Fear of harming others mainly son

 

We take any reference to harm of any kind very seriously and have contacted the OP to give her the appropriate information to deal with this issue.  Not all communication takes place on the open forum.  All we can do is suggest on the ground, face to face help from a professional, the rest is up to the person.

 

Your comment to the OP, or I should say "emoticon" was not helpful or supportive in any way which is why you were received the reply from Challis.

 

Let's treat each other with respect and spend time more wisely by supporting and encouraging our members.

 

pianogirl

 

 

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Jabba I have absolutely no desire to harm my child!!!! Did you read my list? ! It says I have a fear of it..I fear that my sx will make me lose my mind. I have a therapist and I'm very honest with her. She sees no signs that I'd do it..but when u have went through what I have you fear everything #!! I will not be writing on this forum any longer. I feel even more scared and crazy now.
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Jabba I have absolutely no desire to harm my child

 

Well, again not write it, I just responded to that symptom ...

 

I will not be writing on this forum any longer

 

See you, but I think you have informed about what to do:

 

and have contacted the OP to give her the appropriate information to deal with this issue

 

P.S.

 

Your comment to the OP' date=' or I should say "emoticon" was not helpful or supportive in any way which is why you were received the reply from Challis[/quote']

 

Ok, it's right.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Jabba I have absolutely no desire to harm my child!!!! Did you read my list? ! It says I have a fear of it..I fear that my sx will make me lose my mind. I have a therapist and I'm very honest with her. She sees no signs that I'd do it..but when u have went through what I have you fear everything #!! I will not be writing on this forum any longer. I feel even more scared and crazy now.

 

traumatized80, please stay with us ........please keep posting.

 

there are many Members here who know what you are going through.

 

Honestly , please stay .....you are such a nice person and i know for sure

 

the stage you are in now.....is temporary, you will make it.

 

Just ignore a European continental fool.......he is clueless, he can't help it. :smitten:

 

 

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The thought of harming loved ones or committing violent acts is not uncommon in folks with OCD(something that can be triggered in benzo withdrawal).

They are simply thoughts. Thoughts do not equal action.

Our withdrawing brain seems to like to attack us where we are most vulnerable.

So sorry you are dealing with this. In my worst OCD moments I've often had the most violent thoughts and images flash through my mind.

It's unfortunately fairly common and it fortunately does pass.

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The thought of harming loved ones or committing violent acts is not uncommon in folks with OCD(something that can be triggered in benzo withdrawal).

They are simply thoughts. Thoughts do not equal action.

Our withdrawing brain seems to like to attack us where we are most vulnerable.

So sorry you are dealing with this. In my worst OCD moments I've often had the most violent thoughts and images flash through my mind.

It's unfortunately fairly common and it fortunately does pass.

 

Nice....I was hoping for someone with experience would come along.......!

 

great support.....thank you for posting. :)

 

 

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Just ignore a European continental fool.......he is clueless, he can't help it. :smitten:

 

You are a woman putting really bad, I'm sorry: I have not offended anyone, much less you.

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That's enough already,  let's just stick to the topic of the thread.  While we understand that members may involve themselves in healthy debate and disagreement, personal attacks are neither healthy or appropriate.

 

pianogirl

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Traumatized,  this is a horrific list of things you are going through, many of which I have experienced. Please stick with this forum, it will be so helpful to you. I know what it is like to be so terrified by all this, and I think you gave Avery good description of some of the things many of us experience.

 

Hang in there and just ignore any unhelpful comments.. I know you're scared :smitten: :smitten: :smitten:

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