Hi [...] -
Another welcome from a fellow Lorazepam person. Soooo many ups and downs, and such a shock. I was only "on" it for 2 months, have been "going off" it for 3 months.
RE: the medical situation - a friend recently said there ought to be someone in the doctor's office, clinic, or whatever, an assistant, who, as a part of his/her job, whose job it is to help you when it's time to go off the medication. It would be such a simple thing to add, not very expensive, either - someone informed and experienced - like us. My doctor just said "I hope the taper goes well for you, see you in three months." I had no idea what it would be like. And when I see him in another month, we're going to have a conversation I doubt he is expecting.
Stay with it, and stay with BB's - everyone here has been an enormous help to me. No one else really gets it.