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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #20 on: April 15, 2014, 07:00:10 pm »
Raymond - I think you will find that your music will be an excellent indicator of the stages of your benzo recovery.

Neurological and psychological testing can be difficult, but when the music coming out of you sounds good, it is an indicator of high functionality IMO.


I never thought I'd see a Flying V avatar though.  ;D     Good one.   :thumbsup:



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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #21 on: April 15, 2014, 07:23:09 pm »
The neurological things really frighten me which is why I decided to join the forum. I've had tremors, twitches, balance problems, eyelids going and the list goes on. Nothing showed up in the MRI that I had last year. Also had EMG tests done and the usual "benign fasciluation syndrome" diagnosis which everyone seems to get when they've been on a med with unexplainable s/x. What do neurologists really know? Pardon the pun but neurology itself is the "grey" area, never mind the grey matter in the brain.

I think you're right in the fact that once my playing stabilizes, my functionality will be on its way to normalizing. A good way to judge it, I guess.

The Flying V was always one of my favorites along with the Explorer. Had an '82 Explorer at one time but sold it. Opted for a Tele, much easier to play sitting down  :)
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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #22 on: April 16, 2014, 12:58:51 am »
I have had, and still have, some joint aches but luckily not coordination problems (touch wood). My main issue with my playing was almost a complete apathy and lack of interest. I think I was generally depressed without realising much, apart from those moments when I felt particularly down.
Now, I'm back enjoying it, playing everyday, and more importantly for me writing some new stuff and recording which I hadn't done for ages. It's a blessing for me in recovery.
Does anyone else realise now that you were depressed in general after removing the benzos from your system?

Also, I've seen so far in this thread there's a few guitar players, a drummer, a pianist...We could do a jam  ;D
I'm a guitarist but also I can do bass, I've got a decent bass guitar too.
Any singers, brasses, exotic instruments here as well?
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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #23 on: April 16, 2014, 02:19:40 am »
[...] made me think about the time I signed up for a band formation at my old work for the company picnic.
We practiced in my front room. We had 3 guitar players, 2 bass players, 2 drummers, keys and an electric violin.
OMG it got HOT in there with all the electronics and bodys! It was a bit odd though because of the different levels of skill.

It was for fun so I went along with it and we did OK at the picnic, after that I bowed out though and ended up hooking up with one of the guitar players and bass player. We ended up playing together and playing out for almost 5 years.
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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #24 on: April 16, 2014, 06:31:37 am »
I have had, and still have, some joint aches but luckily not coordination problems (touch wood). My main issue with my playing was almost a complete apathy and lack of interest. I think I was generally depressed without realising much, apart from those moments when I felt particularly down.
Now, I'm back enjoying it, playing everyday, and more importantly for me writing some new stuff and recording which I hadn't done for ages. It's a blessing for me in recovery.
Does anyone else realise now that you were depressed in general after removing the benzos from your system?

Also, I've seen so far in this thread there's a few guitar players, a drummer, a pianist...We could do a jam  ;D
I'm a guitarist but also I can do bass, I've got a decent bass guitar too.
Any singers, brasses, exotic instruments here as well?

You're lucky to have been spared the coordination problems. I get lots of joint pain, especially in my knees which is a real hot spot in w/d from what I understand.

Depressed, yes but I'm still recording lots, interestingly the depression inspires some good songs and lyrics, albeit a little on the blue side. Some of the best tunes out there were written by people suffering from depression. My all-time favorite singer, Brad Delp (Boston) wrote the lyrics to A Man I'll Never Be when he was at his lowest point in life. Such a shame he's no longer with us.
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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #25 on: April 16, 2014, 01:23:37 pm »

You're lucky to have been spared the coordination problems. I get lots of joint pain, especially in my knees which is a real hot spot in w/d from what I understand.

Depressed, yes but I'm still recording lots, interestingly the depression inspires some good songs and lyrics, albeit a little on the blue side. Some of the best tunes out there were written by people suffering from depression. My all-time favorite singer, Brad Delp (Boston) wrote the lyrics to A Man I'll Never Be when he was at his lowest point in life. Such a shame he's no longer with us.

Yes, the knees.. ouch! I feel it on some days especially walking downstairs, never before this. I think there's a difference between depression that could be described as a state of sadness and melancholy, and depression that's more like a state of emotional numbness and withdrawal. I tell you, I couldn't have been bothered writing one line when feeling like this, I just wasn't up for it emotionally, almost complete aloofness and detachment.   
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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #26 on: April 16, 2014, 01:24:43 pm »
[...] made me think about the time I signed up for a band formation at my old work for the company picnic.
We practiced in my front room. We had 3 guitar players, 2 bass players, 2 drummers, keys and an electric violin.
OMG it got HOT in there with all the electronics and bodys! It was a bit odd though because of the different levels of skill.

It was for fun so I went along with it and we did OK at the picnic, after that I bowed out though and ended up hooking up with one of the guitar players and bass player. We ended up playing together and playing out for almost 5 years.

That's a nice story, you never know where you're gonna find a suitable musician for you. I always keep an open mind.  ;)
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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #27 on: April 16, 2014, 02:19:28 pm »
I go though times when I can Mix and when I can't. Like, sound is 'painful" sometimes. As far as playing, I haven't really played guitar is 8 weeks, And singing, wow, my Vocal chops will need to be brought back to life again when I'm off this crap.

I'm finishing up a disc ( that would have been done by now , if I went going though Benzo WD's) but it's hard to work on the last remaining songs because of WD's,

I'll mix, for a few hours..burn what I did. Get through the night and try to listen to the mixes the next day..and some days I just can't. So, there goes a day.

It sucks Music is my life. And I want it back.

Thank you Doctors and Pharma Industry.
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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #28 on: April 16, 2014, 02:49:51 pm »
Yes, the knees.. ouch! I feel it on some days especially walking downstairs, never before this. I think there's a difference between depression that could be described as a state of sadness and melancholy, and depression that's more like a state of emotional numbness and withdrawal. I tell you, I couldn't have been bothered writing one line when feeling like this, I just wasn't up for it emotionally, almost complete aloofness and detachment.

Fire and Rain by James Taylor was a great example of depression and creativity. Position 227 on Biilboard's top 500 greatest songs of all time. From Wikipedia:

...the song was written in three parts:
  • The first part was indeed about Taylor's friend Suzanne, who died while Taylor was in London working on his first album after being signed to Apple Records. Friends at home, concerned that it might distract Taylor from his big break, kept the tragic news from him, and he only found out six months later.
  • The second part details Taylor's struggle to overcome drug addiction and depression.
  • The third part deals with coming to grips with fame and fortune, looking back at the road that got him there. It includes a reference to James Taylor and The Flying Machine, a band he briefly worked with before his big break with Paul McCartney, Peter Asher, and Apple Records.

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[Buddie]

Re: Any musicians out there feeling the effects?
« Reply #29 on: April 16, 2014, 02:54:04 pm »
I go though times when I can Mix and when I can't. Like, sound is 'painful" sometimes. As far as playing, I haven't really played guitar is 8 weeks, And singing, wow, my Vocal chops will need to be brought back to life again when I'm off this crap.

I'm finishing up a disc ( that would have been done by now , if I went going though Benzo WD's) but it's hard to work on the last remaining songs because of WD's,

I'll mix, for a few hours..burn what I did. Get through the night and try to listen to the mixes the next day..and some days I just can't. So, there goes a day.

It sucks Music is my life. And I want it back.

Thank you Doctors and Pharma Industry.

I get that "painful sound" thing a lot. I have a pair of Yamaha HS80's that I run pretty much everything through and I could swear sometimes they're not working properly.

It took me a while to figure out what's going on but it's not the monitors at all, it's my hearing that takes a hit. Yet another wonderful w/d symptom. "Altered sense of hearing" according to the Ashton Manual.
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