I was put on 4mg of clonazepam (paxam) a night, roughly 3 years ago, for chronic insomnia caused by an (at the time) unknown condition. Turns out, I actually have an autoimmune disease. However, my inability to sleep was then blamed on anxiety and depression, and the severe pain I was experiencing was brushed off as 'imagined'. All of these 'causes' were actually symptoms of the larger problem.
Last year, I was off my medication for a month without any side effects presenting themselves. However, my sleeping was becoming more disturbed by the day, until I had to go back to my doctor. He prescribed me with a drug that was supposedly less dangerous than clonazepam. Long story short, I ended up paralyzed on my bedroom floor. My roommate had to call an ambulance. My doctor said I was imagining things, convinced me to try the drug again, and I ended up seeking medical help elsewhere for a plethora of health issues that put me back on 2mg paxam so I could be stabilized.
I would like to stop taking the medication, but am afraid of going through days without sleep, potential side effects from an extra year of use, and the possibility that another 'harmless' drug will be prescribed to me for my insomnia. I've researched for months about the best ways to get off these drugs, though even the thought of going back to a solid week without sleep, only to collapse for a few hours, scares me. Keep in mind that I am a teenager, with no job history, and no qualifications due to several years of debilitating illness. All I really want is to be able to have a real life of some form. Any support that comes from someone more experienced in these matters would really help at the moment. That is what finally led me to this site.
Also, I would like to apologize for my rather long introduction.