Hey MT,
I really needed to hear that tonight.
tonight is really rough.
i really do not like the way i look and wish i looked perfect.

i'm freaking out about all my freckles.

majorly.
and i feel like i am incarcerated here at my parents house when i'm just here recovering and very scared that i will never be able to find the perfect home for myself or job again.
i'm one of the ones that klonopin really took away my life for ten years. i am a musician with one record recorded and one record almost done but klonopin wouldn't allow me to finish--so freaking out about all that and my looks and my age and all i have not done and all that i have done.
oh and the carpet is killing me and i have lived here for a long time without that bothering me before--what is up with that?
is that the down regulation of those gaba receptors?
but thank you! i am sure that i am being hard on myself and need some more acceptance. i need a window.
i am going to pray for a window.
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