I see every scenario play out here, from the easy walk offs to the terrible rush of severe symptoms but I’ve seen enough to believe that your taper will foretell your recovery. If you’ve had a relatively uneventful taper, I believe your recovery will be more of the same.
Each of us is unique so our experiences will be different but your experience through this whole journey becomes somewhat predictable. You make the reduction, you feel the same old symptoms and sometimes you get new ones. These symptoms vary in intensity from cut to cut and you learn to expect them, they become the known and even if they’re awful and miserable you’re not as fearful because you’ve had them before. Jumping off the drug, facing what members describe as acute benzodiazepine withdrawal is terrifying. What will come next, what nightmare will befall me now if I’ve barely survived this ordeal so far? Can you see the fear this thinking generates?
Fear, one of our constant symptoms, the one that makes everything worse is in your face and taking what should be something to look forward to, a milestone you’ve worked so hard for and making you dread the reward.
I don’t know what’s going to happen to you or anyone but I’m hoping for the best because hope is what gets us through this.