Hi [...],
My husband had a similar experience as you with the crossover. I have gone over several forum posts and it seems that there are some people that, unfortunately, cannot cross over successfully. Looking into it more, it seems that k binds more tightly to the receptors than v. That's one issue... the other is that even though Heather Ashton has said that benzos are non-selective, it seems that some affects the patient differently than others (i.e. xanax is excellent for anxiety, klonopin is good for anxiety but also has myoskeletal relaxing properties that xanax does not etc.). I wish there was a better understanding but it is what it is for each person going through this.
We switched to a compounding pharmacy rather than try to titrate at home. You can see in the signature that a TEVA batch mess CT-ed my husband unintentionally and triggered akathisia... it was hell.
The solution we use in an attempt to imitate the effect and slow taper of valium is a 1mg:20 ml solution of propylene glysol a bit of water (5%), peppermint flavoring and pure clonazepam powder. The simplicity of the ingredients and lack of fillers is essential to my husband's taper.
If you want to follow this route, a few recommendations:
1. Find an accredited pharmacy through BIC or what not. I can't stress this enough.
2. Insurance rarely covers compounded medication, so this may get to be quite expensive. In our case, it was necessary, because of the terrible reaction he's had to so much. We needed the help...
3. For all that is wonderful about compounding pharmacies, the FDA accepts a 10% variation in compounds. That may be nothing for most people, but when tapering from benzos... everything matters. The reason that I say this is that you must have a relationship of trust with your prescriber and the pharmacy because you WILL likely need to bring back a compound and have the prescriber override so the pharmacy can refill. Maybe you never will (I pray you won't) but jic, always prepare for the worst case scenario in these matters.
If you do want to go this route, I can provide you with my pharmacy info and any compounding pharmacy can reach out and get the "recipe" we came up (a couple of members have already asked me about this and my pharmacist is am awesome person that is more than happy to share.
I would be remiss if I didn't say that @[...] deserves MAJOR kudos for talking about propylene glysol when my husband I were tying to figure out the correct compound.
I hope that this helps a little..