For the love…..

9 1/2 half weeks post jump and I have had about 100 hideous symptoms that were out to destroy me, and many are still there, sadly. But I’ve been spared the insomnia until last night. And as with all the other symptoms, it wasn’t ‘normal’. It was brain dead, catatonic terrifying insomnia!

Is this the kind of insomnia you too experience-a gravely distorted kind that is intermingled with terror?!?!

Thank you 🙏

Yeah after 4 years I still have very bad insomnia and sometimes it accompanied with fear and intrusive thoughts - there were  times when I going through WD when my insomnia was the worse and certain thoughts seemed to come from other places and were not my thoughts - creepy stuff

Also, when i first started having insomnia I would get an hour or two of sleep but I would have horrifying, violent, gory nightmares. I dont have those very often - not like i did before.

Beyond terrifying. It’s just unconscionable how truly devastating-on all levels-this is, especially in top of everything else.

Another 2 month? 3, 4+? Right. Something has to give, let up, ease. 😢