Bedridden 3 years...no more!

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[...], Thank you so much for the encouragement. I remember you bring bedridden for a long time. Enjoy your new life!

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Congratulations [...].....what an amazing success. 

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[...], glad to hear you are ok now!!

Hope you do not mind a few questions...    since you were so disabled, did you have everything (including the TMS) come to you?

And you liquic micro tapered off?   And did the gabapentin help with that or not?

Were there social services that came to you or how did you manage?

Thanks for coming back to post!

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Oh, one more question if you have time for it--  was the worst withdrawal during the taper or when off?

I'm weird in that I went into acute while still on, when another med was added...  I was totally bedridden then.  I wonder if I will be again since am not much functional now.

OK, thanks and again so great your depression just lifted like that and you healed

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TY everyone again.

No i went to the hospital for all my treatments. Family helped me, i couldnt drive hell i could hardly walk. TMS ECT and the 6 years of trying to fix myself going to Drs and getting every test known to man....

I didnt liquid taper...i dry cut with a scale 10% cuts every 2 weeks hold as needed.

Gabapentin...yuck evil stay away...yes it probably helped me but if i were not already an addict to it at that time i would never ingest that poison.
Its just as bad if not worse imo as klonopin. I believe the combo of G and K is one reason my brain was so damaged.

No social services came to me.

I was in tolerance WD very sick already when i found this site. But..i did get sicker when i did my taper and jumped. I was polydrugged and like i said...that Gabapentin was an X factor..i know it had alot to do with the damage done also. GOOD LUCK GOD BLESS YOU ALL> YOU WILL MAKE IT I AM PROOF.

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Congratulations!!!

Do you wish you would have went slower on your taper, even though you were in such tolerance?  Anything you wished you would have done differently in your taper?  I haven't looked back at your posts.  I just know I am in hell - had to cross over from Valium from Klonopin and am looking at a longer taper than I would like.  My story is complicated - severe tolerance withdrawal after holding a lower dose too long.  Not sure how fast to go now - I have 7 children to try and care for.  How long was it once you were off until you started healing?

[[Buddie]]

Grovejuice,

You hung tough and are getting better. I am sure it will continue. May God Bless you everyday. Keep coming back to keep all of us posted on your miracle comeback.

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Hi all.
Its been awhile since i came on but i always do looking to see who needs help...spirit.

I wont write a book explaining my horror but I was severe WD and bedridden 17hrs a day for over 3 years. That includes the 1.4 years or so of tapering,
I was so sick and major major major depression. Unable to take care of myself. I didn't shave or shower sometimes for over a month...i couldn't do it. and didn't care. I never left the house unless it was for my TMS therapy or later in WD my friggin ECT therapy!!! Yes..i was so desperate i signed up for ECT to try to get relief from the extreme severe depression.

I never thought i would get better, have a life, look out on a nice day and want to go enjoy the sunshine and warm breeze.

Then....unexpectedly...the depression lifted. I was still sick, i was suffering symptoms of a damaged CNS and brain, but the impossible had happened and i knew if i just kept living I would continue to heal!!! I was right...the other success story writers were right.

I still have a major fatigue problem that makes normal activity difficult at times, but I am living and proof we can recover from this nightmare that seems to be a permanent state. BENZO LIES BENZO LIES BENZO LIES. Hang tough...be strong...have hope...pray to your God....love yourself.

AWESOME STORY!!!!!  love to hear stuff like this from the worst of the worst! Your story should give EVERYONE hope!!

You hit it on the head....the withdrawl lies to you! Its all Benzo lies! All the doom and gloom is total bullshit! Its a VERY scary ride...but Time is the ultimate healer and it DOES go away!

! So happy for you and your GREAT life ahead of you!!!

[[Buddie]]

Congratulations!!!

Do you wish you would have went slower on your taper, even though you were in such tolerance?  Anything you wished you would have done differently in your taper?  I haven't looked back at your posts.  I just know I am in hell - had to cross over from Valium from Klonopin and am looking at a longer taper than I would like.  My story is complicated - severe tolerance withdrawal after holding a lower dose too long.  Not sure how fast to go now - I have 7 children to try and care for.  How long was it once you were off until you started healing?

No my taper was by the book, it is what it is..if i felt the need to hold longer than 2 weeks...i held. Those of us with kids to care for...sigh...makes it more difficult for sure. If your able to function now...then make those cuts as small as needed, hold as long as needed...to be able to continue functioning. I believe we start healing as soon as we jump and no longer ingest the poisons. U cant feel or measure the healing...but now i know its always happening very gradual and undetectable. At maybe 1.5 years after jumping...i realized i was feeling better. After the K..i had to taper of the G...and it was just as bad. Good luck everyone. One day at a time.

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I want to keep this thread active. I think its an important read to remember even the most extreme cases will improve. I am still getting PMs and that's what i want. To help..pay it forward. I was up at 5 30am today..pretty normal for me. I never feel sick anymore..i never wake with severe anxiety. I never wake with depression. I am refinishing all the wood cabinets and drawers in my kitchen. I am working on my 1970 SS Chevelle i have owner since i was 18...it is my best friend...my pride and joy. I left it unattended for the 3 years i was bedridden along with everything I own. Yard, other vehicles, house etc. In comparison, a day when i was in WD would be, wake up...struggle to just get out of the bed...drag myself shuffling my feet the whole way to the bathroom cuz i cant even lift my legs. Go back to bed for 3 hrs...repeat all day nothing to eat until sometime in the evening the prob just some fruit. I would be in bed 17 hrs or more everyday. I am not perfect. I still have a damaged, weakened CNS but vastly improved. My memory is terrible. Really really bad. Benzos yes but for me the ETC i opted to go through in my last final attempt to rid myself of the severe depression is the culprit here. Gettin the pic of how bad i was? That's just the tip of the iceberg. Drooling on myself unable to get up from a chair and other events that are better off not talked about. You can do it. You will make it. Its hands down the hardest thing u may every go through but there is hope. Please hang on. May your God bless you. I lost mine for awhile but he proved me wrong.