OMG such emotion....tears falling as i read ur responses. Good people suffering

I am trying to respond to all questions but easy to get lost with PMs and the post.
The ECT...did it help? Timing made all my family and friends this YES the ECT helped and is why i am so improved....but i know it didnt. I wud not do it again it was hell in itself. TIME is what healed me and our amazing biological make up. Our brains are damaged and other systems as well.
But our brain rewires and once its back online ( healed) at a nominal state..the other systems begin to heal also.
Symptoms began to lift long after i jumped off. I wud not expect any noticable improvements while tapering. Tapering is tough...go slow...very slow imo.
Our brain, if healing at all during taper stage, is very minor and just not apparent to us. Its all invisible but know this everyone. IT IS HAPPENING YOU ARE HEALING I PROMISE YOU (tears falling for you) YOU WILL GET BETTER!!!!!!!