Protracted healer

[[Buddie]]

I wanted to pop in quickly and say it took me 6 years to heal. I was on here under a different name for several years. Traumatized80. I was the most horrific case I had ever seen. I was poly drugged after 1 panick attack. I spent 14 months in and out of a psych ward, temporarily lost my nursing career, gave birth with over 150 sx and so much more.

I can't honestly go into such detail because its caused severe PTSD.  I was in SEVERE acute withdrawal/brain damage for 3.5 years. I spent 90 percent of my days screaming I'm agony and clinging to anyone that would tell me I would survive. In my eyes I am a walking miracle right now.. anyone that knows my story will vouch for me.  After 4.5 years I was still very debilitated but was able to return to work 2 days a week.

I spent the next 1.5 years slowwwwwwwly healing and never believing that some of the remaining acute like symptoms would go away.  This is why I wanted to come on and briefly say I am doing okay. I know some of you answered my messages every single day an old pretty much kept me alive in my darkest times.  I believe there is a list of my symptoms posted under my old name. 

I hope this gives some of you some comfort.  I also believe that we must look at other causes. I believe the drugs were just the last nail in the coffin for me.  I had toxic breast implants, metal filling ect.  Once I had the implants removed and the mental out of my mouth I began to heal rapidly.  However, I do not want anyone to read this and assume all of my issues were from them.. I had the implants and fillings fir more than 15 years and my symptoms did NOT occur until the doctors poisoned me.  However, I believe the over load on my system having had these things plus the drugs caused a cascade if events.  I wish you all the best. 

If I can recover.. anyone can recover... I remained off ALL drugs and let my brain and nervous system repair itself. The body and brain have an anate ability to heal theirselves. I'm proof

[[Buddie]]

Thanks so much for letting us know.  Great to hear!! I'm finally noticing big improvements at 3+ years off, but the last 4.5 years have been horrific.  Like you, I don't wish to revisit the darkest times ever again, even to write my story.

All the best to you,
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[[Buddie]]

Thank you for sharing your story and I'm glad you are feeling better. 

It gives me hope as I have been pollydrugged and now tapering off benzos for the second time. I feel scared a lot of the time and need many stories that people have recovered.

I'm wishing you continued healing and serenity.

[[Buddie]]

My utmost and sincerest thanks for sharing your story here. I am sorry for your unbearable suffering and applaud your bravery at making it to the other side. My goodness. All the best for a healthy and wonderful life.

[[Buddie]]

Wow. I was reading your posts a few days ago. The recovery you made is miraculous. Did you have OCD and racing thoughts?

[[Buddie]]

I am SO glad to hear that you ate better.

Your list of symptoms resonated with me very strongly.

Sadly because of severe spinal muscle stuff I have had to reinstate and now on a different benzo but still in WD so got to get off that as well now.

I have often wondered what happened to you.

Thank you so much for writing this.

[[Buddie]]

THANKS SO MUCH for coming back and attesting to healing!!! We get so many posts from people about healing vs. non-healing, especially on the protracted board, so it's wonderful that you've spoken out!!

I vaguely remember your name as traumatized80. I'm so glad you've healed!! I still have a ways to go, and I've been off benzos for 5 and 1/2 years. I'm slowly getting better, but I've made many mistakes and continue to make mistakes to this day (coffee!).

ENJOY YOUR LIFE!!! You've been through the wringer, and that's not saying it lightly. I, too, have been polydrugged on bp pills. I'm only now realizing that the more pills the doctors prescribed, the more my bp rose and caused many awful side effects. Doctors are TRULY IGNORANT about the body in terms of healing. They think that the more drugs they give, the better their medical reports will look to insurance companies, and they consider that they're doing their duty. Truly a nightmare of care...But in a way I can't blame them. They're under the gun, to so speak, and they have limited tools at their disposal. I wish I'd known this way back when.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

[[Buddie]]

Wonderful post! It is very reassuring to see a severely protracted sufferer come back and give good news. All the best to you, brave and strong [...]!

[[Buddie]]

I remember reading posts from you as traumatized80.
This site truly has saved lives and made it possible to recover through the hope that is shared here.

Thanks for sharing your story.  Good luck and continued healing.

[[Buddie]]

Hello and thankyou for posting this. I am over 4 years off now and wondering if this is it for healing. Mentally and emotionally healed for 12 months but still crippled by muscle pain. I hope this corrects over time like you did.

Thankyou for coming back.