
I think you got the attention of a lot of folks here. I am just starting a 20mg taper - now at 15-16mg +/- (using a pill splitter and 5mg size pills). If there was a BUGGED OUT eye emoji it would have been used a few times.
When I first starting taking valium it was due to a major panic attack I had in the late 1990's. Over worked, stressed to the max, trying to support a wife and 1 little boy on pathetic income. (overtime and 2 jobs). One morning i woke up, made my coffee, and that wave of sheer panic to go out the door hit me, with shaking/tremors,etc.
I never was informed of the FULL extent of the damage these drugs cause when prescribed.
I have been taking valium for 20+ years.
After reading your post i can only wonder what my future will be at nearing the age of 70.