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Yes, I have viewed many options and unfortunately, I'm at the point where the medication is barely sustaining me and beginning to have withdrawals even though I am still taking it. I've begun to take my 2 doses closer together so that I am able to sleep at night. I believe the valium taper is the way for me. It will enable me to go at my own pace & even out the levels in my system since the valium has a longer half-life. It's really beginning to tax my nervous system and cognitive skills and I don't want to feel this way anymore.
For example, I'm pretty athletic and played softball with my cousins in summer 07 (a year after taking the xanax) and played just fine & only struck out at bat once when my boyfriend was watching. It didn't matter, bad pitch whatever, I could hit the ball and make contact. This summer, I only got on base twice, striking out all the rest of the other times....
That's why I so desperately want this to stop!! I'm constantly bumping into things, breaking glasses, tripping over my own feet...and walking around with scratches and bruises. My fiance came home early yesterday on his way to the dentist and I didn't hear him come in the house. He scared the ever living shit out of me!! And I let out a blood curdling scream like from the movie Psycho and felt like I shaved a year off my life! He felt so bad about it, but that is what is going on with me.
So, since my GP said "This is out of his comfort level, I've never prescribed this much Valium" after asking for the Valium taper, but that's how much your prescribing me in xanax, I told him..what am I supposed to do? and where do I go? I feel like a pill head who is dr. shopping, but I'm not doing it to continue, I only want it to stop.
