not liking this

well i think i am feeling the effects of the tapering . don't think i like it. i  am really depressed and tired.

 

i was excepted into  outpatient treatment center that starts next week. I will go 3 times a week and then i have a councilor i will see once a week.    

This really depresses me. i never thought i  would end up in a  treatment center, they will be helping with my recovery in alcohol and also this.

 

I just feel real sad and alone :'(

 

hugs

carol

Your not alone! WE're all here for you. This might be a good thing for you. It's not inpatient so thats good.

I know the wd symptoms suck but they will be over when we get off this poision. We all have our bad days when tapering.

Amanda 

Amanda's right...you are not alone at all.  Heck, I never thought I'd ever check myself into a psych hospital....but sometimes we all need a little help.  Don't feel sad about this...you are doing something to help yourself and that's a good thing!

 

Love,

 

Jen

I did a partial program and it started me on the road to recovery. I didn't agree with a lot of stuff they said, and they certainly didn't understand benzo addiction, but it did get me out of the house. 

Hi carol

 

I'd just like to say I know how you feel about being sad and alone. I feel the same and I also feel that no-one understands.

I know people do on this site but its not the same as having someone be there for you in person.

 

I don't know your story but I was a drug abuser for 18 years (mostly amphetamines) and then I started abusing valium for 3 years and have been trying to get off it with assisitance from the doctor since last July. I cut myself off from all my partying friends and moved house and have found it very difficult to make new friends since then, I feel really alone because of this but I don't want to go back to my old lifestyle. I haven't touched any drugs except valium and some other prescribed drugs since the taper began.

 

I have been through hell and back since last summer. I have an addiction worker and a cognitive behaviour therapist I see weekly. I was supposed to go into rehab for 6weeks last Autumn but I made up all sorts of excuses to get out of it. In hindsight I wish I had gone in but finally now I do seem to be getting better.

 

The people on here are so understanding and caring, it has helped me a lot; although I am still really sad just now - I will finally be free from valium in a few weeks!! 

 

Let us know how you get on with the treatment centre and counsellor. Hopefully it'll help you 

 

I don't mean to hijack this thread, but...

 

bluechinchilla, I can definitely relate to what you're going through.  I've had to drop all of my friends after I quit doing drugs (dissociatives, opiates, psychedelics, cocaine) and started tapering.  Luckily I have an old old friend I've known since grade school that's 100% drug free and never has done drugs (except doctor prescribed ones which he's had a bad experience with and is now clean) and it is tremendous help to know someone that's "normal" and still wants to share my company (and offers a new perspective on life). 

 

Carol, depression has been pretty bad at times for me.  I found exercise helps heaps.  I'd keep it low-impact though because benzos do weird things to your joints and muscles.

thanks guys

 

i feel real shity today.  wish this woudl end.

 

huggs

carol

It will. Just try to hang in there a little longer, ok? You'll be better again and live and full active happy life once off this crap!

Amanda 

Carol,

 

I have been where you are sweetie...I promise it gets better.  I didn't think I would live through it...but low and behold...I did...and I'm living a very active healthy life.  You will too...hang in there!

 

Love,

 

Jen